*sigh*

Well comp royally sucked. Not something I want to talk about, because I have no answers. I spent 9 1/2 hours in that competition hall, and my head was killing by the end of it, and I was so tired.
Things that I've learnt from/since:

*I really really didn't think I have been getting enough sleep at all. I only got 6 hours on Saturday night, and Friday night was not good either. So I was not well rested and refreshed. Also, I think I got sunburnt and was dehydrated from Saturday. I just slept last night, 11 hours, and I feel better today for it, even though I'm still exhausted.
*Tumbling rocks :D I want to start tumbling, but not sure if that's a possibility yet.

*Open DMT was my last event. I wasn't originally rostered on (at my request), but after stuffing up age, I wanted to change the record for the day. I didn't want to go home not having had accomplished or done a full event. So I made myself vulnerable by requesting to go into open...falling was not an option. Anything less than standing up was failure. I had to prove that I could do it: prove it to my teammates and my coaches. And I did. Two tiny steps on both passes (of an incredibly shit run up mat, DMT and landing zone).
So I think one of the reasons that worked was because I got angry. I had something I had to prove. I was determined, I had to prove the record and expectations of others wrong.
But how do I replicate that in comp? Because I don't want to always have one event which I have to get completlely wrong for me to be fired up. It's too risky.

I think also I just have to do double the routine work, especially full vols. I have to know so exactly what everything feels like. Just continuously churn out 10 skills. I didn't overthink tramp, I didn't underthink tramp - I just have no idea what happened. I think I have a real problem adjusting to other equipment - especially in terms of what to spot.

I don't think we're going to a qualifier or another comp for the rest of the year, which sucks, because now I'm in the right mindset to set the record straight. Not competing for four months kidna makes you forget.